I've had a hard time releasing lately; there are too many holes to fill in and the lines keep adding up - my Tetris screen is almost full. Maybe it's the combination of it just being the 14th and too many negative things have already happened that my confidence has already waned for this month? I've broken my own rule by counting on things that had yet to (and no longer are) happening.
I know this overall lack of inspiration comes from being bored of what I see every day and escaping in to my art hasn't helped since my muse has been on vacation. More so, what I am producing doesn't seem to be that interesting to me... I'm looking elsewhere for satisfaction.
People that I have found inspiring are seemingly more and more flakey ... which is natural, I suppose, but I hate being disappointed in my family members. What's worse is, I seem to be becoming moody and being moody to my significant other. Which, in the end, just makes all of this worse.
That being said, I'm ready to be happy (=
I know this overall lack of inspiration comes from being bored of what I see every day and escaping in to my art hasn't helped since my muse has been on vacation. More so, what I am producing doesn't seem to be that interesting to me... I'm looking elsewhere for satisfaction.
People that I have found inspiring are seemingly more and more flakey ... which is natural, I suppose, but I hate being disappointed in my family members. What's worse is, I seem to be becoming moody and being moody to my significant other. Which, in the end, just makes all of this worse.
That being said, I'm ready to be happy (=
Above you see Chrommaggia - I would really like to own the whole outfit, but I like the ring the most. "Not all who wander are lost"
I personally think that this quote fits me perfectly since I do spend at least 50-70% of my natural day wondering. Whether it be in my head or in my life.
There we go, I lack direction when it comes to business in my life. If you told me what you wanted to do I could direct you where you want to go (as I did with muh friend Joshie) but I just can't seem to get the haze out of my drive.
I feel like there are too many options but none of them are developmentally stable for the future at its current virus-y pace. (on a side note; I doo feel like we're an infectious disease that we need to get under control before we kill ourselves with ourselves.)
And, another side note :-: I did delete all past posts from this blog as they are irrelevent to anyone. :)
I personally think that this quote fits me perfectly since I do spend at least 50-70% of my natural day wondering. Whether it be in my head or in my life.
There we go, I lack direction when it comes to business in my life. If you told me what you wanted to do I could direct you where you want to go (as I did with muh friend Joshie) but I just can't seem to get the haze out of my drive.
I feel like there are too many options but none of them are developmentally stable for the future at its current virus-y pace. (on a side note; I doo feel like we're an infectious disease that we need to get under control before we kill ourselves with ourselves.)
And, another side note :-: I did delete all past posts from this blog as they are irrelevent to anyone. :)
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